Friday, January 1, 2010

My Word for 2010

I do love this tradition I stole from MPJ 2 years ago of choosing a word as a theme for the year. My first word was self care. I was pretty new (again) in recovery, and I worked on self care with a vengeance.

Last year, my word was recovery. I had just started a second on-line step group for compulsive overeating, and we'd planned to do a step a month, so I was scheduled to have completed it last month.

Well, things didn't go exactly as planned. The online step group had some false starts and stalls and didn't quite make it to step 4. But, I got myself an OA sponsor, and started working the steps in a new way. I'm still on 4, but I'm still working it. So, here I am, doing what I said I was gonna do, albeit perfectly imperfectly.

I'm loving that concept- perfectly imperfectly. It's leading me to my new word, BALANCE. The last couple of months of 2009 were pretty rocky for me. My sister gave me a rock she'd gotten for herself, with the word, "balance," on it, and I've been clinging to that rock and trying to hang on to my balance. It seems to be getting a little easier, but I do think it's a good focus for 2010. So, that's my goal for the year. Balance. I'll let ya know how it goes.


Jade said...

Isn't this the best tradition ever? I really love the concept behind choosing a word a focusing our energy on it; it doesn't come with unrealistic time-line and the pressure + shame + guilt that is a harmful mix of emotions; instead it helps us become aware of our choices and how we wish to bring certain influences into our lives (or excise an influence).

I am looking forward to reading about how you work to achieve balance in the coming year; I have struggled with this myself and the challenges are ever-present for me.

Wishing you balance and love for 2010, R!

Jay said...

I see you standing on a bridge, holding yourself still in the wind.

Do you know the song kol ha'olam kulo?

All of the world is a very narrow bridge/the most important thing is not to fear.

Someday I'll sing it to you.

Recovery Discovery (R) said...

Thanks Jade and Jay. And yes, Jay, I do know that song. I first learned it for Tashlich, where our community was standing on a bridge casting away our sins. It's a lovely image and one I'll hold on to, particularly the image of you singing it to me. Thanks!!

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

Yay! Balance is an awesome one. I know of a bridge near me where you can sing if you want to visit. ;)